Fire Pt. 2
I can’t remember the last time I struck a match,
Or caught fire in someone else’s eyes.
The first time I tried to get close to an old flame
He said there wasn’t enough of a spark
So I opened fire and then burnt us down
Like that B-52 wreckage he walked me to
Just to light him up and ignite his memory
Like scorching the earth between us could
Make him wish he burnt his tongue
And loved me back instead
As if cauterizing my heart could mitigate
The damage he spread from his broken one
And like the smell of napalm ever won our Vietnam War,
But still, strike after strike, I called in for another one-
I made sure I got him every time.
Every last bit of him,
And I’ve been setting arson to my lovers ever since.
But men still like me like they like playing with fire
Like putting a finger through a candle ever won a science fair
Like an affair could save them from themselves,
And the most piteous of them still hold that candle,
As if just the mere idea of us could gas them up
The more I re-fuse, the more they pile
Embers underneath my throne,
And I always smile before I throw Molotov cocktails
Then watch their pedestals burn to hell.
Because I’m not the perfect woman
Not the anima or the goddamn
Manic pixie dream girl either
I’m just a pyromaniac
Who gets off on blazing up
Just a fucked up little girl,
Who had to learn how to throw
Hands off from other hands
By putting up a firewall
I do not want you to get close.
I do not want you to exalt me
And spark plug me just to
Exhaust me and put me out.
I will sear you to the crisp if you dare.